I really want to kill myself.?

i know that wasnt really a question but whatever. So theres basically a long story behind this that goes back but everything is just building up and i dont know what to do. I use to cut but ive been "sober for about 1 month and a half now but ive been getting urged to cut/ self harm. What i do now ( since i have no blades atm) i dig my fingernails into my arm/leg.
Ive only told one friend but she completley turned her back on me and basically said f u. My younger sister hates me. And she has tol me . She always tells me to kill myself and to shut up and get out of her life. My parents are always either working or fighting with eachother or with me, I hate my dad and i know that sounds selfish but i do. He treats me horibley. Always balmes me for everything and always screams and yells at me. Me and mom actually dont have a bad relationship. We actually have quit a good one. But we get so mad at eachother sometimes.
Im doing poorly in school atm also because i havent been able to pay attention due to my stress/anxitey and stuff. I used to be very loud/outgoing and fun but now im so quite and to myself. Other people kept asking me whats wrong so now i pretend to be ok but it actually kills me. Ive stopped eating. I dont eat breakfast or lunch at school. I only eat a tad at dinner so my parents to think somthings up.

Theres a lot other things going on. thats just some, but everything has just kind of boiled up and i feel like im trapped. like im stuck and i cant get out. I want to die. I really truley do. What should i do?

Maybe you don’t want your life to end, maybe you just want the pain to end. In that case, you need to talk to someone you trust, a counselor, coach, favorite teacher, trusted adult, minister or other clergyman.

Emotional abuse from a parent can cause depression, anxiety, low-self esteem, withdrawal from social activities and friends, falling grades, poor communication skills and lack of joy in life.

5 Responses to “I really want to kill myself.?”

  • Hannah says:

    It will get better . It is selfish to kill yourself because it allways gets better and they love you
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  • nightmusic says:

    This is going to sound crazy, but maybe you should go back to cutting. It seems like it gave you a sense of safety you aren’t getting now. At a later point in your life when you’re able to, you could get some help. But it sounds like right now that may not be an option. So maybe a little bit of cutting wouldn’t be the worse thing in the world.
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  • Shaylih says:

    I know it’s easier said than done but think about your future.. You are so young.. You can still grow up.. Have kids.. Explore the world… I know it’s hard but talk to someone it really helps… Your school must have a counsellor who can help you.. And I know it seems your parents don’t care but if anything happened to you they’d be distraught… Don’t waste your life… Your journey has only just begun and being a teenager is always hard but life has a way of working things out eventually.. Just think to the future and stay strong and don’t be afraid to talk to people.
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  • D says:

    PLEASE DON’T!! That is a permanent thing for a temporary problem. If you have a friend or an adult who u trust talk to them. If not do your research and find a counselor to talk to. I’m not a bible thumper but I believe GOD brought me into this world and he’s the only one who is gonna take me out of it. Please stay strong, you will get through this. Also I think you should listen to this song "Boom" it’s by the group Mary Mary. Listen to positive music that makes you feel better or get out and do something you enjoying doing like a hobby.
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  • Jody says:

    Maybe you don’t want your life to end, maybe you just want the pain to end. In that case, you need to talk to someone you trust, a counselor, coach, favorite teacher, trusted adult, minister or other clergyman.

    Emotional abuse from a parent can cause depression, anxiety, low-self esteem, withdrawal from social activities and friends, falling grades, poor communication skills and lack of joy in life.
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